obituary.

a fine art collection

“It’s time to move on,” it said to me.

The words pulsated within my soul as I brushed my hands, wet with pant, across a blank canvas. The message was revealing.  For years, I’ve struggled with the trauma of my childhood and early adulthood; and painting has become a way to cope.  Obituary was born out a necessity to tell the stories that I’ve seen, heard and lived.

Obituary isn’t about grief.  It is a eulogy for the past — a way to let go.  It is a resolution of the experiences I have no power to influence.  It’s a collection of stories that have weighed on my soul, full of wonder, love, ill feelings and, most intensely, loss.  Each piece, with their own spirit, with a name and a story that was begging to be told, in the hope they — and I — will finally find peace in their eternal rest.

- ven

floating through abyss, I have a name.

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i am

there was a haze of something, that wasn’t nothing.

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this is matter

it was instant and intensely brilliant.

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sparkler in the void

you are now here, too.

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tresarius

you are not alone.

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tresarius system

the silent static roared within the void.

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umbra

a sound of color burst in the distance, and then I was far away.

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the pulse

surrounded by warmth, I have a spirit.

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what I am

the precession through this new world is bountiful.

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flora

this feels important, but there is a lack of understanding.

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river of the fates

voices roared in, around, above and below

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the three flames

a light appeared, small and warming.

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the red dwarf

it grew until it warmed the dust around it.

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the blue dwarf

all the color in this universe materialized before me.

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birth of the bifröst

take a drink, a voice says.

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hvergelmir

there were no limits.

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bifröst

a cataclysm, of energy formed inside.

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inside the giant, part i

until it could no longer be contained.

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inside the giant, part ii

this will be a place for all my favorite things.

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in the sky with diamonds

I reached out and could feel the roughness.

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birth of a planet

this will be worth of losing sight.

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mímisbrunnr

the division of creation.

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urðarbrunnr

engulfed by creation, I have a form.

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where i am

emerging from Abyss, creation was born.

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dawn of the creation

the gateway to Abyss.

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the waiting room

the darkest depth belonged to them,

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the night

and is named night.

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keeper of the night

darkness came forth,

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the dark

and reigned over the depths of black.

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ruler of darkness

creation was theirs to harness,

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the life

as they were no longer bound by loneliness.

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creator of worlds

aeons younger than myself, they stared quizzically. I discovered I was not alone.

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the inquisition

between us and creation, they were the veil.

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heaven’s debut

they entered into creation, bringing with them the concept of love,

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when love arrived

and they used it to conquer worlds.

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commander of love

suddenly, there was something that wasn’t darkness,

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the light

everything they touched, illuminated.

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envoy of illumination

they mischievously blinked with curiosity,

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the coyote

and formed into god that has not one name, not one face.

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the god of many names

the commander of love, intoxicated me with their gift.

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lover’s knot

selene forsake her vows.

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the betrayer

the tree that feeds the worlds began to decay.

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yggdrasil’s decay

tartarus bound the decay, hoping to contain the spread.

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the binding

the threshold was built strong,

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gates of tartarus

the disease disrupted harmony by manifesting greed and gain

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mammon

virally expanding with no end to consumption,

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belphergor

causing wrath to fill creation,

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sathanas

transforming love into unnatural desire,

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asmodeus

festering within creation to covet the Abyss,

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belzebub

infecting creation with apathy,

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abaddon

the disease formed Ego.

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the morning star

and creation began to fall.

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draconem

to purge, tartarus release the disease from containment

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tartarus opens

and with it, chaos.

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chaos entered creation

from the disease, a new immortal formed.

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a new primordial

they feasted on our worlds… growing stronger

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the womb

their disciple turned creation against itself… and against us.

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jezebel

his name was War. and creation fell under him.

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war’s dominion

the first intervened, creating blood.

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first blood

and drowned worlds with it.

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downpour

in sacrifice, the first being created time.

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the wounds of karma

outside of time, Death continued it’s rampage.

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a greeting from Death

selene’s blood birthed those that lived outside of the loop.

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selene’s guilt

patiently waiting for Karma to end,

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kali’s keep

so that they could purge creation.

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azrael at the gates

writing the fate of every atom to come,

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the moirai

preparing the path to the new universe,

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following hecate

waiting to devour the disease.

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coatlicue

life is protected by Karma, separated from Abyss.

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the gift

creation will remain untouched, separated from Abyss, until the blood rite rescinds.

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the laws

he was bound, to the souls he found, as he guarded the river he was creation’s caregiver.

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hades

her army of the valkyries, cleanse the field of disease, as she carefully chose, who she reaped and who she sowed.

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freyja

silent, was he, who was born from the misery, he stopped War from his final crime, he was the immortal known as Time.

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chronos

the kings and queens within creation, faced their impending damnation, this queen fell to her knees, but whispered curses at this disease.

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myrina

he embalmed the heart of creation, as his last attempt to fight, the impending decimation.

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anubis

she grabbed her king’s hand, as his blood hit the land, raising the dead, drenched in red

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isis

they would become a token, for all those that were broken, not knowing their identity, Time is suffer, for this entity.

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two-spirit

as creation faced it’s bitter end, he came to aid, as man’s best friend.

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sirius

leaving Eros’ side, she entered the stars, to be creation’s guide.

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calisto

I curse the damned who created this War, you will suffer in this infinite loop, to even the score.’

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persephone

He was the beginning and this was his end. Rest in peace, creation’s dear friend.

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eros

a broken heart disguised behind a face, so pretty. a shattered soul waiting to be renewed, so appealing. lost somewhere in translation, I’ll be waiting there, for you.

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the goodbye

I was the sun. She was the moon. He was the war, I was the peace. I was the disaster. She was the beauty. He was the sorrow. I was the happiness. We were death. They were life.

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